Dear Chrissy,
I'm so so sorry to hear that you're finding things hard at the moment, but I'm sure in time you'll have more contact and dreams. Please please please try not to feel too low because I'm sure he's still watching over you. In time I expect the reasons for the lull will become clear.
Do please keep in touch with us here - even if only to tell us things aren't happening. We're here to share the bad times as well as the good.
Much love and light to you and I'll keep you in my thoughts.
Gemeni.